Wednesday, October 29, 2008
I got my scare fill for the year...
OH MY GOSH!!! So I just went to the International Cinema on campus with Emily and we saw The Orphanage. Um...it was so scary!!! The whole story was just messed up, but it was freaky all around. The only time I really laughed was when I would look around at all of these college students who were scrunched down in their seats clutching each other with looks of terror on their faces. It was actually pretty fun because we would all scream, gasp or groan at the same time, which would then make me laugh. But that was really the only thing that made me laugh. I definitely did not laugh when I had to walk home alone in the dark because Emily had class at 7pm (the movie started at 5:30pm). Anyway, it was scary and I'm not quite sure I'll be able to sleep tonight. PS remember I am THE BIGGEST scaredy cat ever. About a quarter of the way into the movie I told Emily I didn't think I could make it through the whole thing I was so scared. My body sort of hurts from being tense for so long. I was literally shaking when I got home because my muscles were sore. Yes, I am pathetic.
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
Disney Lab
Due to my addiction to the Disney Channel Spencer sent me this video about the making of Disney stars. I laughed so darn hard! Sorry it's just a link (I'm a bit challenged when it comes to uploading videos...amazing I know, I'm supposed to be all knowing with technology, or something like that).
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
Conference Weekend
I'm really behind on updating so I figured I better get a move on it.
Conference weekend I went and stayed up in Pleasant Grove with Hayley and Maddox. Earlier that week we all went out to the Bombay House for dinner because Chris and Becca were in town. So Saturday they came over and watched a little bit of Conference with us before we went up to Salt Lake with them to Becca's sister's house for birthday cake and just to visit.
Sunday morning I drove back up to Salt Lake with my two roommates Emily and Lisa and our FHE brothers Kelly and Trent. Kelly had gotten tickets to the Sunday morning session of Conference and had invited us to go. I've never been to Conference at the Conference Center, so it was a really cool to go experience that. I have always heard people talk about how amazing it is to be in the same room as the prophet, but I never really knew how amazing until that morning. I was sitting there, in between Emily and Trent playing solitaire with Trent on his iPhone, when the entire room went silent and everyone stood up. It caught me unawares and I stumbled onto my feet. As I stood there squinting my eyes down to the center of the pulpit straining my eyes to see President Monson enter the room I felt the most...interesting feeling ever. I don't really know how to explain it, it wasn't the chills or some burning in my bosom, I just felt like a giant cloak had enveloped me. I didn't feel warmer or anything I just extremely comfortable and at peace, like I had taken a great sigh of contentment. That feeling was just a confirmation to me that all those men in suits have been called by our Father in Heaven and that President Monson is a prophet and seer for our time. It always feels like such a blessing to have those feelings reconfirmed. I managed to stay awake the entire time, which I was extremely grateful for, I was so afraid I was going to fall asleep sometime during the session while I was sitting in the same room with the apostles and prophets! But I didn't.
After Conference I drug everyone around Temple Square trying to find Dan Magstadt, a really good friend from our freshman year who was serving his mission in Salt Lake. And guess what? We found him!
Conference weekend I went and stayed up in Pleasant Grove with Hayley and Maddox. Earlier that week we all went out to the Bombay House for dinner because Chris and Becca were in town. So Saturday they came over and watched a little bit of Conference with us before we went up to Salt Lake with them to Becca's sister's house for birthday cake and just to visit.
Sunday morning I drove back up to Salt Lake with my two roommates Emily and Lisa and our FHE brothers Kelly and Trent. Kelly had gotten tickets to the Sunday morning session of Conference and had invited us to go. I've never been to Conference at the Conference Center, so it was a really cool to go experience that. I have always heard people talk about how amazing it is to be in the same room as the prophet, but I never really knew how amazing until that morning. I was sitting there, in between Emily and Trent playing solitaire with Trent on his iPhone, when the entire room went silent and everyone stood up. It caught me unawares and I stumbled onto my feet. As I stood there squinting my eyes down to the center of the pulpit straining my eyes to see President Monson enter the room I felt the most...interesting feeling ever. I don't really know how to explain it, it wasn't the chills or some burning in my bosom, I just felt like a giant cloak had enveloped me. I didn't feel warmer or anything I just extremely comfortable and at peace, like I had taken a great sigh of contentment. That feeling was just a confirmation to me that all those men in suits have been called by our Father in Heaven and that President Monson is a prophet and seer for our time. It always feels like such a blessing to have those feelings reconfirmed. I managed to stay awake the entire time, which I was extremely grateful for, I was so afraid I was going to fall asleep sometime during the session while I was sitting in the same room with the apostles and prophets! But I didn't.
After Conference I drug everyone around Temple Square trying to find Dan Magstadt, a really good friend from our freshman year who was serving his mission in Salt Lake. And guess what? We found him!
Monday, October 20, 2008
Tagged by Emily
3 Names you go by
1) Mia
2) Millie
3) Amel
3 Restaurants I love
1) Yoko's
2) Costa Vida
3) Bombay House
3 Trips to plan on this year
1) Gilbert, Arizona
2) Yellowstone
3) Hurricane, UT
3 Things you want badly
1) Good health
2) Faith that everything will work out in the end
3) Reassurance that this really is the best thing
3 Pets you have/had
1) Spartacus (Beta fish)
2) Mickey (cat - the most loved of the cats we had)
3) Socks, Greywolf, Ginger, Rosemary, & Whisper (all the other darn cats we had that ran away)
3 Things you did yesterday
1) Drove from Gilbert to Provo
2) Said goodbye to many loved ones
3) Planned my life out for next semester
3 Things you ate today
1) Beef jerky
2) Mints
3) A roll
3 Fears
1) That I'll never be good enough
2) Snakes
3) Unstable ground (i.e. roller coasters, trampolines, diving boards, grates in the sidewalk, the ocean floor, anything you stand on the moves voluntarily)
3 Things you plan on doing today
1) Finally sleeping
2) Homework
3) Start training for that marathon
3 Things you plan on doing tomorrow
1) Going to classes
2) Work
3) Making a budget
3 Favorite Holidays
1) Christmas
2) Thanksgiving
3) Halloween
3 Favorite beverages
1) Milk
2) Gatorade
3) Strawberry Daquiri
3 people I tag
1) Jenny
2) Callie
3) Tara
1) Mia
2) Millie
3) Amel
3 Restaurants I love
1) Yoko's
2) Costa Vida
3) Bombay House
3 Trips to plan on this year
1) Gilbert, Arizona
2) Yellowstone
3) Hurricane, UT
3 Things you want badly
1) Good health
2) Faith that everything will work out in the end
3) Reassurance that this really is the best thing
3 Pets you have/had
1) Spartacus (Beta fish)
2) Mickey (cat - the most loved of the cats we had)
3) Socks, Greywolf, Ginger, Rosemary, & Whisper (all the other darn cats we had that ran away)
3 Things you did yesterday
1) Drove from Gilbert to Provo
2) Said goodbye to many loved ones
3) Planned my life out for next semester
3 Things you ate today
1) Beef jerky
2) Mints
3) A roll
3 Fears
1) That I'll never be good enough
2) Snakes
3) Unstable ground (i.e. roller coasters, trampolines, diving boards, grates in the sidewalk, the ocean floor, anything you stand on the moves voluntarily)
3 Things you plan on doing today
1) Finally sleeping
2) Homework
3) Start training for that marathon
3 Things you plan on doing tomorrow
1) Going to classes
2) Work
3) Making a budget
3 Favorite Holidays
1) Christmas
2) Thanksgiving
3) Halloween
3 Favorite beverages
1) Milk
2) Gatorade
3) Strawberry Daquiri
3 people I tag
1) Jenny
2) Callie
3) Tara
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
Worse, better, worse, better, never perfect
I'm supposed to be getting better not more sick! But that's not how this weekend turned out. The sinus pressure and the headaches are gone, but I'm still a bit congested (and now there's lots of drainage) and guess what?! I now have a sore throat that makes it almost impossible to swallow. In fact, it hurts so much that I have avoided swallowing at all and just spit any time I need to. It has been such a fabulous time. I've been sick for almost two months and it is unbelievably frustrating. I've been really good about getting to bed early (except this weekend) and...ok that's about it. Food isn't always the greatest when you're cooking dinner for one (too lazy to do it for one) and I've been really shoddy with exercising. So basically I need a major lifestyle change or else I'm just going to keep being sick, more sick, sort of sick, sick, more sick, and so forth.
Gosh this stinks.
Gosh this stinks.
Thursday, October 2, 2008
I declare INDEPENDENCE!!!
Do we ever take human connection for granted? The ability to communicate feelings, emotions, fears, desires? Do we never appreciate touch? Smell? What type of people would we be if we could not feel? Never love? What would our lives be like if we could not believe or understand?
I have a terrible habit of dreaming of tomorrow. But in dreaming of it, I lose today. Nothing gets done. Life drags on slowly, plotting my course across a map of empty yesterdays looking much like the patches of earth from an airplane window. Where do we pick the pieces up? When is our breaking point? Who finally pulls us out of the ditch and pushes us forward? When do we realize we are wasting away? Do we ever? We always talk of goals and fixing things, changing habits but we never do. Nothing ever gets done. No initiative is taken. We set goals too high, we aspire to impossible dreams. Do our lives look like the sideways wanderers of roads and rivers? Why do we find it hard to walk straight down one path?
I have wandered carelessly, but most times purposefully, pushing against the fences that box me in. I wish to make decisions on my own, to have my own life, and yet I do. I have built my own walls. I've erected them around my mind, my heart, my soul. I set my own limits, not allowing myself to grow and change. Do I fear change? Do I fear risking everything I have now to become something I could be? Is it cheesy to declare my own independence? To declare freedom from myself? In declaring ourselves free from all that holds us back I believe we need to set all we have at the foot of our Savior and finally admit to the fact that, hey, we really cannot change on our own. We need His help, His hand to pull us up out of that ditch we have found ourselves in. Yes, everything starts with a desire, but to go from desire to action we need a little shove, a little kick in the pants by someone who knows us better than any other person. He knows our limits, He knows what we can handle and trusting in Him will enable us to let go of the past mistakes and move forward with more than just hope. He can helps us escape sometimes our worst enemy: ourselves. Well, I am going to declare freedom from myself, even if it is laughable; I want to risk everything. I want to find my real limits, actually go out and find my true boundaries. All that I could possibly lose is someone I am not too proud of. I don't want my future to regret my past. I don't want to regret myself. I'm pretty lame as it is, what's the worse that could happen? So all these goals I set for myself this past year - they're gonna happen. I'm throwing all my old habits away and reconstructing myself. Reconstructing me (I want to write a song, remind me to add that to my list).
Why am I doing this? Because I'm sick of the old me. It's time to grow up and grow out of old habits. I want to become someone who is easily loved. Someone that can capture a room, but never be superficial. I want to blow people away when they meet me. I also just want to be in such a state of happiness that each morning is brought with a ray of sunshine and ends with a smile. I want to walk out my door and see only the beauty of the earth and never once doubt my worth as a daughter of God. It gives me the shivers to think about the great big obstacles ahead but I such faith that if I trust in my Father in Heaven then I can become a better person and realize my full eternal potential.
I have a terrible habit of dreaming of tomorrow. But in dreaming of it, I lose today. Nothing gets done. Life drags on slowly, plotting my course across a map of empty yesterdays looking much like the patches of earth from an airplane window. Where do we pick the pieces up? When is our breaking point? Who finally pulls us out of the ditch and pushes us forward? When do we realize we are wasting away? Do we ever? We always talk of goals and fixing things, changing habits but we never do. Nothing ever gets done. No initiative is taken. We set goals too high, we aspire to impossible dreams. Do our lives look like the sideways wanderers of roads and rivers? Why do we find it hard to walk straight down one path?
I have wandered carelessly, but most times purposefully, pushing against the fences that box me in. I wish to make decisions on my own, to have my own life, and yet I do. I have built my own walls. I've erected them around my mind, my heart, my soul. I set my own limits, not allowing myself to grow and change. Do I fear change? Do I fear risking everything I have now to become something I could be? Is it cheesy to declare my own independence? To declare freedom from myself? In declaring ourselves free from all that holds us back I believe we need to set all we have at the foot of our Savior and finally admit to the fact that, hey, we really cannot change on our own. We need His help, His hand to pull us up out of that ditch we have found ourselves in. Yes, everything starts with a desire, but to go from desire to action we need a little shove, a little kick in the pants by someone who knows us better than any other person. He knows our limits, He knows what we can handle and trusting in Him will enable us to let go of the past mistakes and move forward with more than just hope. He can helps us escape sometimes our worst enemy: ourselves. Well, I am going to declare freedom from myself, even if it is laughable; I want to risk everything. I want to find my real limits, actually go out and find my true boundaries. All that I could possibly lose is someone I am not too proud of. I don't want my future to regret my past. I don't want to regret myself. I'm pretty lame as it is, what's the worse that could happen? So all these goals I set for myself this past year - they're gonna happen. I'm throwing all my old habits away and reconstructing myself. Reconstructing me (I want to write a song, remind me to add that to my list).
Why am I doing this? Because I'm sick of the old me. It's time to grow up and grow out of old habits. I want to become someone who is easily loved. Someone that can capture a room, but never be superficial. I want to blow people away when they meet me. I also just want to be in such a state of happiness that each morning is brought with a ray of sunshine and ends with a smile. I want to walk out my door and see only the beauty of the earth and never once doubt my worth as a daughter of God. It gives me the shivers to think about the great big obstacles ahead but I such faith that if I trust in my Father in Heaven then I can become a better person and realize my full eternal potential.
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