Saturday, April 14, 2012

How are you?

(Sometimes I write random things down and then never post them. I'm gonna try to be better about that. I wrote this a few months back...)

How are you with forward people?
Would you prefer me to be naïve, or can I speak my mind and show you me?
Do you want a girl who craves your attention and not your affection?
Can I stand next to you on that stage or will I always be cheering you from the crowd?

How are you with respecting girls?
Do you need a wife and not a woman to marry?
If I disagree with you will you think me impertinent or will you grow pride in my own opinion?
Do I need to be the girlfriend who waits at home twiddling or will you encourage me to climb mountains, without patronizing me?

Can I be me without you?
Will you be proud of my accomplishments and my aspirations?
Will you kiss me when I need love, hold me when I cry, and correct me when I’m wrong?
How are you when it comes to loving someone?
Do you live the double standard?
Or can I trust your actions to parallel your words?
Are you the type to say you love, more deeply than ever before and then turn away at the first sign of a future promise?
If I open my mouth to tell you I admire you, I adore you, I love you, will you shut it with a panicked gaze or will you open your own and tell me the truth?

How are you with honesty?
Are you one of those who hide behind excuses or do you show that fearful soul?
Will you tell me when I’m pushing too much and holler when you need a little reassurance?
I can’t read minds like the rest of them, but I’m wanting to give more than the best of them.
So make me a promise, an easy one, a simple one-
Promise me that you’ll be honest.
That you will tell me that you’re actually scared of committing and not hide behind anything else.
In your honesty, promise that you’ll spare me from long term pain, but that you’ll still keep me in the loop.
Promise me that you’ll be trustworthy.
That no matter what happens I can count on you to be you
and to love me for me.

1 comment:

Katie said...

Beautifully written Amelia. I don't know why I have this thought, but I'll share it. When I first got married, after a couple months or so, I suddenly panicked and realized I was married FOREVER and that the rest of my life would be with this guy I just married. Suddenly the world seemed so small and my options so limited, and I got depressed because I had so many things I wanted to do with my life. I couldn't run off to some college in a different state, or take a job in a faraway city. I was now responsible, I was a wife.

However, once I stopped focusing on my wants and started thinking about our wants, I have found so much more happiness. Now WE have big dreams together. I just had to realize that compromising does not always mean you get less than what you want. Sometimes it means you get a whole lot more.

I have no idea why I felt like sharing that, so take it as you will! I love your writing.