Saturday despondency

I've been up since about 5 this morning. It's been almost a 20 hour day for me. I'm tired, emotionally drained, physically drained, mentally drained. Is there any other type of "drained" I could be, because I am. It's been a long day and it wasn't long because of how busy I was. It was long because I sat around doing nothing but playing the "oh woe is me" game and talking to myself. Whether it was talking myself out of thinking unkind thoughts, or talking myself into trusting someone, or telling myself to stop crying and suck it up, or telling me that everything will be ok once I start working and getting busy with life this summer. I'm going crazy, but what's new. We all talk to ourselves right? Sheesh, I hope so, or else you better lock me up.

I'm so tired but I just can't seem to let my body and mind fall into the void of slumber. My thoughts are exhausted, there's nothing left to think of, but my body is ready to go run a 5K. I just wish that there was fairy dust for sleeping or something, or just a switch on our bodies that just shut everything off with one push. Feeling kind of like a Debbie Downer. Don't worry, happier posts are coming soon.